just wanted to say thanks for all the prayers and wishes for mom. you seriously do not know just how much it means to her. to see her smiling, even just for a second, when she talks about how many of you have taken the time to show you care - means the world to me and my family. this whole process is going to be difficult and will continue to be difficult for a long time after - but i am comforted knowing that my mom can come here and release a little bit of hurt and pain and there will be someone to listen.
i myself am going to look into counseling, either with the girl from hospice that we have been dealing with or someone else. right now i am just trying to hold it together, partly for mom and my boys. i know what has happened, but reality hasn't set in yet. Wednesday will be hard and i don't know how i am going to hold mom up when i know i won't be able to hold myself up. i know we will get through it - we have to - it just sucks.